Wednesday, May 25, 2005
i did it.
gave robert everything liao.
del and i...
we gave him the pic, the disk and the emblem.
hehe. nice words for things best kept secret.
damn.
what will he do/feel/think when he see's nanapok's message? asking him to rmb me...
damn.
i have a feeling i won't ever recieve smses from him again. i bet he'll suspect sthn. though he might think we're just kidding around.
but then he will put together the pieces... and he'll know. eventually.
well. the official final contact was wierd. he was like... all smiles.
i felt frozen in place.
no words or phrases came to my mind.
i though of stuff to say but they came out as garbled mutterings when they passed through my mouth.
damn.
oh man. i'm really trully screwed.
nevertheless, i will remember today. he was wearing my fav coloured shirt. white.
knight in shining armor? ^.^
the winsome smile that i love.
i shld be sad.
but i'm feeling nothing.
i regret leaving that impersonal message.
i regret leaving him the feeling that i'm glad he's leaving.
i regret not being able to tell him i'll really miss him.
i think i'm thinking too deeply.
well.
i guess after the o's, the tears will truly start to flow.
when i look at that stage where the fasion parade occurs everyday, and theres no sign of my favourite person in the whole school.
when the person i respect and nourish a tendre for will no longer step out onto that aisle. and never will i see him again.
i can speculate that i might see him in his famous chariot someday. but realistically, tht will never be true.
i'll never see him again.
oh man. i've worked myself into a state of tears already. need to make a break for the loo before my mom sees me crying at the computer and reads this. have a nice life everyone. gd luck for the O's.
Sherilyndel Revolted at Wednesday, May 25, 2005 |
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