Monday, August 01, 2005
Woah Woah Woah.
I don't hate carrot to that extent.
Its just like... When I see him, I just want to move away.
Hmm... Perhaps you would understand if you were to put yourself where I'm standing/sitting/kneeling.
I don't think you would be able to take it.
Its the same as when you move on to mew friends.
I admit.
I am escaping further rumours by making a distinct seperation between us.
But what are rumours?
Lies.
So I'm telling the truth.
That i want nothing to do with him.
And not just because of the rumours.
He's a liar, a Backstabber, a rude and insensitive person who has some skewed idea about himself.
I hated him because of jealousy.
I admit.
Its my fault because I didn't have the strength to forgive him.
I couldn't look past his first mistake and look at those times when we were really friends.
I guess its just me.
I can't except being lied to.
Being betrayed and left behind.
Having to put up with his insensitive and snide remarks because he chose to study in secret.
But theres no law saying you can't do that.
I can't stop anyone from doing that.
It's just me.
Its a huge problem with me.
But the friendship soured even more with each passing day.
I couldn't stand him.
And all those past mistakes came rolling back to me.
It was all in my head.
Every little thing.
His bad habits that I can no longer laugh at.
I became critical of every thing he did.
Him cursing his own parents was a further addition to the reasons i had to hate him.
But I don't hate him that much.
I'm fine with sharing a class with him.
Just don't let me have to talk to him.
I don't have that much time to waste on him.
So... Lets just say the friendship has fallen apart and i don't think anything will ever salvage it.
Lynde, I'm not like you.
I can't find it in me to show him grace.
I can't forgive him.
Unfillial little liar that he is.
No.
Theres just no space in my being to accept his wrongdoings and exist peacefully with him.
I don't think this is teen angst.
I don't hate the world.
I don't hate my parents.
The only thing i detest is him.
If I put myself in his shoes, I'd rather die.
For all the mistakes he has made I know i won't do it.
Because i hate liars and betrayers.
The whole lot of them.
And by experience, I've learnt nothing good comes out of lying.
So yeah.
I've burnt enough time on computer games and the like.
So no time will go to hating him.
He'll get his own retribution.
No one gets away with insulting and cursing their own parents.
No one.
Sherilyndel Revolted at Monday, August 01, 2005 |
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