Sunday, September 18, 2005
They say there is no love without trust.
But I don't understand.
You love me yet you don't trust me?
Stop carrying grudges.
I don't like it.
I always forget about anything the moment we both turn silent.
But bloody hell.
You never do that.
You insist on apologies.
And you know how hard that is to give when I'm still angry over what happened.
Let me make it clear.
I'm not angry with you.
I'm angry with myself for falling into your traps and quarelling with you.
Its always my fault I guess.
Stupid la I should just learn to shut up.
Turn a deaf ear to your accusations that I'm lying.
I hate that.
Stop accusing me.
Its always some stupid misunderstanding that you blow up into some big shit.
Ok.
There you go again.
Talk la.
Talk.
I have learnt my lesson to shut up.
Do I go out the whole day?
Like what the hell.
Forget it.
And here I am crying again when I should be happy to see you.
I was happy to see you guys when I got into the car.
But all I recieved was hostile silence...
I'm sorry ok.
Sorry for not answering your phonecalls or smses.
Its all my fault.
Geez.
Why'd you have to blow up like that?
Sorry for making you wait la.
Sorry...
Darn it.
Its so much harder to say sorry than to just write it here.
I hope you'll see this though that's like impossible.
You only look to see if I'm playing games.
Then you'll scold me and ask me to study.
I am studying.
I'm proud to say I finished almost all my homework already.
But I guess you don't know and care.
Forget it.
Its just a bad day for me.
Haha.
Oh well.
Oh yeah sorry for not going to the temple today.
Sorry for not listening when you told me I had to leave earlier in the morning.
But I really wanted to finish my english before going to Jason's house.
Oh yeah and sorry guys for "bang sair-ing"(abandoning) you all.
Especially Lyndel with the "flying rats" flying about.
Haha.
Forgive me lor.
Its all Loga's fault la.
Why you say you wanna go back so soon?
Then I thought ok lor go liao lor.
So I told my dad to fetch me...
Oh well...
Sorry... Haha... Bad day la no choice.
My Dad very petty today.
Causing me so much grief.
But I don't blame them.
Cos I started it.
Haha.
Silly me...
Happy levelling in Thangonline.
I think I'll continue lagging behind.
I'm not given the freedom of playing computer games on weekdays.
I'll just get screamed at again.
And I'll be tempted to reply rudely.
And another quarrel will spark off again.
Haiz...
Oh yeah.
My dad banned me from going to jason's house.
How petty!
Oh well.
Maybe he was just angry.
Anyway I shall not tell them where I'm going in future then.
Jason's house can easily "become" Bonn's house.
Haha.
White lies don't hurt.
Ok they do but in this case it'll only hurt me cos i'm dead if they find out.
haha.
Ok then hope you guys are having fun at the playground.
Oh yeah. I was refering to my grumpy old Dad. LOL...
Bye.
Sherilyndel Revolted at Sunday, September 18, 2005 |
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