Thursday, February 23, 2006
Stirring the burning embers; Fanning the flames
I believe that well,
my memories of Him and such are fading away.
I can't remember His face. All I see is a tall figure with a blurry face.
Time to reminisce.
Its like a Video Rental shop.
I pull out disks and read those synopses.
My expressions and feelings still vividly portrayed; Yet his response can barely be seen.
Its like negatives that have been exposed to sunlight; the developed photos are lousy.
Hmm next I want to question why am I trying so hard not to forget that little tete-a-tete?
I think I'm nuts.
Seriously there's no one here to replace him.
And that just gets me sad.
Maybe because I've convinced myself that I will only fall for men like Him.
And there are none here.
None in this world? No surely there'd be people like him.
But where? Who are they?
Why do I even bother about that? LOL.
I'm going nuts.
Conclusion: I think I'm getting man-hungry. >.< sound so desperate but no, I'm not wanting to find anyone.
I shall live like a monk! Or in this case, Nun -.-
Lol I wish.
Gah. I don't even know what I'm doing.
Maybe I just miss Him. Yeah.
Maybe. But I don't want to talk to him.
I just want to stand from a distance and see him, hear him.
I'll be content :)
I'm a easily satisfied person. When it comes to him.
And now I fear I'm obsessing over His relative.
Seeing her makes me feel like I'm seeing him because its just soooo unreal.
I'm not turning lesbian don't worry -.-
But just thinking that she has seen him grow up, seen him in briefs( :D ), lived with him for his whole life,
Played, quarreled and laughed with him.
Having him protect her (I hope he did).
omg. Its just too much.
I'm going crazy.
From forgetting and remembering him.
Gah.
Sherilyndel Revolted at Thursday, February 23, 2006 |
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