Tuesday, April 18, 2006
RAR!
Am I cursed?
Lol. First I lose my Economics Holiday Homework.
And then I realise I don't understand the History readings.
Then I notice its missing lots of pages. -.-
And I think "Hmm... Shouldn't I have noticed there were missing pages in school? Oh man... I'm screwed."
What in the world.
And all this happened within 1 hour.
Yay. So here I am fumbling with my stacks of worksheets looking for the stupid piece of Economics Homework when the phone rings.
^(*^&*(^:EH! You ASS WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN! SO LONG NEVER TALK!
Me: Yeah.
&^&%(%^(: WA LAU! THIS WEEK WANT TO GO OUT NOT? MEET UP WITH &^*&^ THEY ALL LAH!
Me: Er. No time lah.
&*%$%#(^: WHAT! A WHILE ONLY LOR! COME LAH. GO DRINK KOPI OR SOMETHING!
Me: Tsk. No time lah.
%^&$($%: BLAH BLAH FREAKITY BLAH.
Me: Tsk.
$*^$$(: More and more BLAH-BERING.
Me: Eh phone no batt liao bye bye.
$#&*#: *Silence*
Peace at last.
The world is freaking crumbling.
I feel like giving up.
But how can I when I'm telling people not to give up as well?
Lol.
I know its time I actually DID something.
Instead of stoning and slacking and worrying every single minute.
But the thought is stuck in my head.
Its just so freaking EASY to give up.
To double click on the MapleStory shortcut on my desktop and play till 4am.
To stumble into bed blind, deaf and hungry.
To grovel and beg for an MC and spend the remaining day slaying mushrooms in a fantasy world.
Contrary to what I just typed, I'll never do that.
Lol.
If only I had the courage to just lose it. Like I frequently do in dreams.
Have you ever had a dream where you could control your actions in it?
Kinda like playing a computer game with you as the main character.
I've jumped off buildings, flown into the sky and did some crazy stuff in my dreams.
*ER HEM* Whatever "Crazy" might mean. Lol.
But everytime I do something that's uber wierd, I don't die.
I don't face the consequences.
I just go on going nuts.
And its normal.
At least as normal as dreams get.
There's this safety net in my dreams, that its just a dream.
I can do whatever I want. However I want, anytime I want.
When will this ever happen in real life?
When can I do whatever I want when I want to?
Well. That's a crappy question that I shall not answer.
For the answer is resounding in my head even as I type this.
Never.
Sherilyndel Revolted at Tuesday, April 18, 2006 |
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